Live Today

The dream for tomorrow
Can be realized today
The hope for the future
Can be realized today

Tomorrow is going to be yesterday soon
Then why fret you fool

If you take control now
I’ll tell you how
The promises you behold
Will be memories of the old

Live your life today
Don’t plan for tomorrow
Forget about yesterday
Carpie Diem is my motto
You would be happy too
If you just follow.

Our Paths may cross again

I loved him even before we became friends. There was something enticing about him. May be the way he looked at me or just the way he made me feel like a little girl inside and a woman outside. I was madly in love with him.
Love is a foolish game. It lifts you up and drops you dead, but who knew when all you could do was croon his name. I was far away from reality and with every breath I wished I could spend it with him. All I worried about was what were we going to do tomorrow when we meet. Love struck I even forgot that college is going to be over soon and he still had to finish his masters
I came back home and this affair continued and we got even more close. We did meet each other’s parents and were instantly rejected. I was working and he was still studying, how can we get married? And thus our love story ended.
A couple of years later after much resistance I got married and my life started on a new lease. I was happy and living my new life when one day I got a message “I love you and I miss you”. I was shattered yet I tried to forget him .I was already trying to cope with my new life, new responsibilities and this whole matter was put in a corner.
New home, new city, it was all very challenging and with a kid it was quite endearing. But I always liked a challenge. My life was smooth with its normal hiccups. One day I saw him again. Staring at me with his enchanting eyes and that grin that made my heart skip a beat. All those feelings came crashing by. The pain I felt when we parted, the joy of seeing him again. I was speechless; I knew not what to say.
It was strange when our paths crossed like this, all those feelings rush to your mind and you know it that you couldn’t be with him anymore.
I wanted to say so much yet I could not, but I don’t wish to waste another moment, when I wrote this and I hope you read it someday.
Who do you think you are? I let you in and gave you my heart, showed you things and told you my secrets. Took your hand and made you stronger. Taught you things and made you who you are. Gave you love and asked for your lifelong togetherness. Yet all I got was pain and some lies. And a scream of broken dreams inside. I still dream of you when I am in pain but beware you mean nothing to me but a fragment of my past.
So go on and be happy with your life but you have got no right to meddle with mine. I wish I would have never met you and would have been stronger. But I could not say these things to you because you are just a stranger from my past crossing my path.

Love at first Kick

I am sure most of you must have heard about love at first sight! But no one would imagine love at first kick!
It was any other day for us! Boring classes and college campus and back to PG. We have seen every bird that the campus had to offer and I was genuinely not interested. We did not even expect any new bird to fly in. and then I saw her…she was a perfect mismatch. She came to study to be a teacher and she was dressed in jeans and shirt. When I saw her with her girls in suits I knew she was different. And then she did this turn and kicked her friend in the bum. I was awed and I knew…I fell in love with the girl who kicked.

Our classes were just across the hall so I had the chance to look at her quite often! I loved the way she carried herself and the way she behaved. Once she caught my friend clicking her snap from my phone and she approached us! That was the day when I had a good look at her and I fell in love. We became friends and started meeting often.

I remember the day, I found her crying over someone and I saw how vulnerable she is. Over the time she became a very close friend of mine, all this while I never told her that I was falling deeply and madly in love with her. Writing a letter for everything was her way of showing that she cared. So I did the same. One day I gathered all my strength and wrote her a letter…
Pree
I am in love with you. I love everything about you. The way you smell. The way you play volleyball. The way you are able to dismantle every guy in your class. The way you have bowled me over.
I will love you forever even if we grow apart I will always love you. I loved you when you sing “Lady”, I love you when you fight with me. I love you when you talk nonsense. I fell in love with you when you kicked your best friend and every time we meet I fall in love with you all over again.

Ramblings of my Heart

I have a confession to make

I need a chance

to explain my true self

give me some time

to turn this around

after I have been drained of ego

I will let you know

how I truly feel

I have been up and down

I have been around

yet I find little solace

in everyday

let me drain my ego

I will let you know

How i truly feel.

after I have run my course

I am sure

I will truly understand this

this feeling that I cant

explain

Wait for me

let me turn this around

lets seek each other out

I am sure we all will find

How I really feel.

For You...

You never know when someone will come in your life and when that person will leave. It is just a blessing to be alive and be surrounded by people who love you and whom you love. I have the pleasure of having you in my life. I dedicate this to our friendship.
Back in school being in the same class did not entitle us to know each other so well. Even being in the same group of friends and going out was not enough for us to be great. I can say on my part that we never felt the need to know each other and yet we were aware of each other.
While growing up we meet different circumstances that teach us a lot about the other person and it was these consequences that brought us together. We selected the same subjects to pursue our careers in and fate proved our guide in bringing one step closer to each other. In those three years we became even closer than before.
As time moved on you became indispensable to me. I thought of you as not just my very close friend but my teacher and guide. Your simplicity and your grounded nature were in complete juxtaposition to my flamboyant nature. But you always managed to calm me down and teach me how not to get hurt when I wore my heart on my sleeve.
I got married and the whole time I found you with me for all the emotional support and stupid things. And when you got married I could not do the same, I still feel guilty about that sometimes. We both got settled in our life. Even after having kids and a home to run we never lost touch with each other. We proved to be each others guide and great friends.
Today I would like to take this opportunity to tell you how much you mean to me. I never knew since when did my best friend’s wife became my best friend and my best friend became my best friend’s husband. We have the same tastes and same thinking (though you are still more in control of your emotions). I hope to continue to be a part of each others life. Let life teach us and let’s learn together.

Find myself

“When we get married and we grow a bit older we kind of loose ourselves” this kind of thought crosses our mind quite often when our relationships become stagnant. Every day we continue to just be, a mere existence. We forget our special character- that character just describes us perfectly. We cease to live and merely exist.
We let people tread all over us and are taken for granted. We forget that before we came to this place we were someone and not a nobody. Have you ever wondered if you went away, would any one miss you? Your husband or even your kids! They are so self absorbed that your existence is as the word itself-‘exist’. Where do you go from here?
We have all made our lives revolve around our family and our own life is just a mere mirror of what our family expects and needs. We stop laughing or dancing or just being ourselves. it happens to the best of us.
Remember when we were younger we all had a plan. I am sure that most of us are able to fulfill our dreams but for someone like me, my aspirations now focus only on my family. “we are family” and yet if we lose ourselves in order to bring the family together, but each and every individual makes the family whole and yet we tend to lose ourselves in it.
Why do we let ourselves get this weak that we let go of our beautiful minds and our body. Isn’t it time to take control of it all? Cease to exist and live once again? After all it is ‘me’ first! If I am well physically and mentally then only I can take care of my family and their needs. I need to develop my own uniqueness, let me not forget who I was to be who I am. Be my own adjective rather than be categorized in an adjective of someone else’s choosing.
So go out and explore your own limits and many possibilities. Don’t be afraid to find yourself again. Your life is not over, not by far.

More...

We came together-it was fate
We separated-it was our choice
Then why does it hurt
When I still feel the same
We live our life- rule of nature
We try to be happy- life rule
Then why does it feels artificial
When I am no longer the same
We lost our selves
We fail to live
We exist in ignorance
Yet we cry
As we want more